Divided Familly

I went to visit my cousin's Sunday and on my way I started wondering, why is it that even in family we separate our self's into two different groups the close group and the not so close group, almost like if we were strangers. Why can’t we greet each other with like we actually miss each other and talk normally like we actually care about watt’s going on. I used to live with my cousin’s; they are like brothers to me. I see my other cousin's and I can’t even talk to them because it feels so uncomfortable, their smiles are nothing but practiced courtesy towards us. My parents tell us its not nice to pretend they aren’t there, but I really don’t know what to talk to them about, school, friends, life, then what just stare at the floor in uncomfortable silence, I think I rather not talk to them at all, just say hi. Maybe if we had gone to visit them more often things would be different. The only place every one of us comes together is on funerals, wish I think is sad because not even then do we get together because we want to but because we have to. When I was younger I did not even care about it because I was used to it but now I’m starting to become more aware of things and it bothers me, When I think about family I think of unity and unity is something my family does not possess, not all of it anyway. Then theirs the other thing that keeps our family separated money one side of our family makes more money than the other not mine thank god for that because I would not like turning into such a selfish show of, oh my dad bought me this, my dad bought me that it's really annoying and instead of helping they just turn around and pretend they didn't here you. I think the part of the family that helps out the most is the one that dose not make allot of money because they help with what they can even when money is more scarce then before. Someday I would like to be a whole family but who knows if we will ever be able to get over our cold attitudes towards each other and forget about the past , it’s very difficult to forget stuff people do to us but for some reason I think we should all take the risk of starting over with our family at least.