Time Is Slow

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This whole week I got up in the morning, got ready for school and came back home feeling like I was a hundred year old zombie, everything anyone told me went in one ear and out the other, I'm not used to that I'm used to always paying attention but this week I have bin to stressed out to keep focused, I'm to worried about what's going on in my life with my family and with my Friends, I feel like I'm trapped in some weird bubble that makes me watch things from a distance without being able to do anything about it, sometimes I even blame my self for what's happening, my sisters are going in the wrong direction, my parents are so stressed out they start to fight allot, and I'm loosing contact with my closest Friends because I never really have time for my self anymore. and then I start to think what if we loose one of our parents what am I going to do, how am I going to take care of my family if I’m still in school and I want to graduate and become someone in life, how can I tell them I’m not ready for that much responsibility without making them hate me. My family thinks I’m just stressed out because of school but that’s not true, it’s like if all the anger and frustration I have bin keeping inside all these years is finally coming out or more like forcing itself out and I can’t stop it.I start to think about hurting people if they hurt someone i love i know their is other people that think the same way only i don't think they think about it like i do it makes me feel evil,and when i draw people getting eaten by monsters my sisters already know im mad they don't even have to ask, All my family thinks im the nicest person in the family but they don't know everything about me,they say they do but really they don't , I feel terrible keeping things from them but in order to keep my family sane it's better if i never tell them anything, why give them more problems, and make them worry about the unnecessary.