Growing Up

Many people look at me and go wow! What is wrong with her, is she out of her mind? Or why does she never talk? Has anyone ever considered that maybe I have nothing to say, or I just don't want to talk, it's not always because I'm shy. I used to let things like this bother me but now I just don't care anymore, yet it still aggravates me that we have to have a reason to do certain things why not just jump out and do it for no reason at all, Why live fixated on making everything the way it has to be rather than just how you picture it once in a while, why not take another rout home or another hallway to get to class instead of doing the same thing every day. Sometimes I feel like our lives are scheduled into our mind , wake up ,get ready, go to school, go home, eat, do homework, go to sleep, repeat. It's boring I like to try new things and exploring new places but I have to many things to do in my life that accomplishing something fun is almost impossible, Ever since I was thirteen I had to baby-sit, cook, change dippers and watch my brothers play outside to make sure they didn't get run over instead of going with my friends. I was treated like an adult when I was fifteen, yea I know some of you think that's great  but its really not you get so many responsibilities that you aren't supposed to have at that age, if something happened you get blamed for it because your supposed to be the responsible one. I never really had time for Friends because my parents would always go out and now when I thought I would finally be able to do what ever I wanted to do I cant because they decided that now was the time to treat me like a child. They say they always get me what I want but that’s not true they only give me what they want, if I ask to go to a concert they tell me no, if I ask to go to the movies they say no, if I ask to go walk around the park they say no. so then what am I supposed to do runaway to do everything I always wanted to do, I Don’t think that’s such a good idea yet its still tempting. I have considered it before but I never go through with it.